Guarded

we have to keep a piece to ourself
that no one else can see
the wounds are deep, the silence holds
we're drowing out at sea 

 we shut the gates, we close the doors
the walls built high and wide
things weigh heavy like anchors
the feelings we try to hide

the darkness consumes us
eventually taking hold
the numbing, lonely feeling
the emptiness unfolds
one tries to fight the demons
the war between mind and heart
the battle rages on and on
hope trying to play its part

we seek for strength
as emotions ebb and flow
as much as we fight
our fears and worries grow

we look to others
when strength lies within
we forget it’s not a flame
just a spark that whispers you can win

we return from the edge
reaching for possibility and light
we are not broken
we are strong and we fight

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