Continued Transitions

September is a month of transition for many as summer moves closer to autumn, some head back to school, temperatures start to drop, rain and wind race through the air almost giving it a sense of cleansing, allowing us to start anew, to get back into a routine. This fall I may not settle into a routine, but I do find it a time to find a way to shed layers versus adding them due to the cooler temperatures outdoors. The layers are those that have closed me in. It's a constant battle that I have fought, especially over the last few years, but some are the same battles year after year, month after month, day after day that I can't seem to win. This fall, I am determined to shed some of those layers, even if it only equates to lightening my wardrobe, but hopefully I will also feel some lightness and freedom from the heaviness in my soul.  I may not be completely in a place of peace, but knowing that with continued hard work and a bit of grace I will forge a new path of freedom.

 This transition, this quest, this shedding of layers is a hope to find a little more joy day to day. I realize that happiness is one of those things that’s meaning can be different for one person than an others. I know and understand what makes one person happy may not exactly be what another person has in mind.  We all take different paths and different routes to get our share of happiness or feelings of bliss and some are fine with delayed gratification while others want happiness right away.  One is not necessarily better than another or right or wrong.  It’s perfectly all right to want happiness now, but to get there, we need to let go of some things or maybe we need to stop doing them altogether. In fact, life is a dance of both. My transitions will continue, as I also believe there are many ways to be happy, but my quest and continued transitioning is to not only find the the temporary happiness by feeling the sun on my face or burying my toes in the warm sand. That part of us that settles is where we trade true happiness for greater joy. My quest is to find the bigger picture, not overlook it. To continue to shed layers, to find my core, to ensure that in shedding my layers, I offer a sense of warmth to others and in doing so can find my own happiness inside and greater joy. 

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